The past few weeks (months, really) have been amazing. Not only have I been working on creating my new business, but I also had the opportunity to cook for an amazing group of people. Then, I got to come home and continue working with my clients, give some free healings, and learn more about what I need to do to make my body stronger. All of this is awesome! All of this has also made my body really, really tired. As I looked toward my first weekend back at home, I had this moment of fear grip my body. I hadn’t scheduled time to relax.
I had scheduled a weekend of travel with my boyfriend, attendance at a graduation, time with his family and our friends, and about 10 hours in a car, arriving back home late Sunday night. My brain was frantically searching for what my spirit really wanted — that space where I got to relax, where I didn’t need to “show up” for anyone, where I could veg out and sleep more and spend time in nature and sip tea slowly.
As the week went on, the vision of what my spirit wanted made itself more and more known, so much that it almost became a physical ache in my body. People around me noticed. “You look….tired,” they’d say, then add, “But happy.” My whole being wanted nothing more than to relax for the weekend. But my mind kept reminding me of a belief I have about what happens when you break commitments. “Breaking commitments is extremely disappointing to the other people involved.You will feel guilty because they will be hurt. Taking time for yourself is selfish.”
As I re-read that last sentence, it still rings true to me. This is a belief I have had for years and years! It’s a family belief that states simply, “When you say you’ll show up, you show up, no matter what happens. You can’t change your mind.” When I read a person’s space, I’m able to identify these types of belief systems — those originating from someone else that are keeping the person from having their highest vibration of healing. It’s not that the belief itself is bad. I would say that most of us want to keep the commitments we make. What I look at is, given the current situation, is the belief system serving the mind, body and spirit or is it actually hindering healing or growth?
Looking at my plans this weekend, my mind did what it does best and started to analyze the situation, create a list of pros and cons, and try to figure out a way to trick myself into feeling better about it. By Friday afternoon, I realized it wasn’t working. I needed to have a very honest conversation with my boyfriend, which brought up another belief system of mine, “When you ask your partner for what you need, they will tell you it’s silly or crazy and make you feel bad for wanting it.” That’s a belief system of mine left over from past experience, and the more I navigate this new relationship, the more I realize it’s not serving me.
The conversation actually went very well. We talked about what I needed, what he needed, and how we felt about it all. In the end, I decided to stay home and have a weekend to myself to rest, be in nature, cook for myself, get more sleep, sip my coffee slowly and try a new smoothie recipe. Basically, a weekend to be myself with no pressure and the intention to fully find my energy again.
Through Spiritual Counseling sessions, I can help you with this process. I can help you identify the spiritual causes of pain, disease, discomfort or disconnection and communicate to you the healing messages of your spirit. Just yesterday, a client mentioned feeling like they had reached such a healthier level after their session. If you are struggling to make sense of the messages of your spirit, your mind, and your body, please give me a call. Your spirit will thank you! Mine did.