for there is love.
Questions related to values, career, life path
I am doing it wrong?
(And why am I judging myself?)
This is not how I want to feel!
In this moment, I struggle
with my body
such a sensitive barometer
such a graceful instrument
it is speaking to me, begging for more time to
with my mind
it is racing so!
Thoughts moving in circles
and I can’t…..quite…..grasp……
what was it I was doing?
And this feeling, this nagging
That something important is slipping away.
What have I given up for steady money? For security?
Have I sacrificed too much?
Or is this the trade off while I build the foundation to my dreams?
I love my jobs…..don’t I?
I have a purpose through them….right?
I help others….?
Where is the ease I used to have?
Where is the simple beauty that I used to find in the process?
I feel that I am running, running
always a hair late
a little short
not quite grounded
not exactly where I want to be
based on standards that I didn’t create
yet have somehow felt need to adopt.
I feel as though I am keeping
all this beautiful, time-tested, nature-based
The saddest part
the part that breaks my heart
is that I am running so fast
that I am afraid little pieces of it are
I have such little avenue to share it.
“Your job clearly fits into these parameters. Stay there.”
But we all know I don’t do well with limits.
Sounds like it’s time to expand.
To take the next leap.
To make scary changes and break through the fear.
Filling it with more of me
my offerings to the world.
The opportunity to be my own creature.
To paint a bigger canvas for myself,
and maybe get outside the lines.
Added March 15th —
Interesting to note that the following was my horoscope for the week. For more on astrology, see www.mosiacastrology.com.